Weirdest thing about not smoking is my time sense is all screwed up. And, I'm clumsy -- my body awareness is undergoing a change.
Odd, very odd.
Friday, May 29, 2009
I'm quitting smoking. It's Day 6. Today is harder. My addiction is telling me "OK, you've proved your point. You can have one now."
It lies. It wouldn't be just one.
I'm using nicotine lozenges. They work! Let me recommend them! Today they're taking care of the physical craving, but the mental noise goes on, and on.
I'm also in NicA, the 12-Step program for nicotine users. I'm praying, making phone calls, posting & emailing people who care. I'm waiting for people to get back to me. I'm impatient, I want relief from my own head.
I'm twitchy. I don't want to be in my own skin. I can smell my own teeth. I want something to do. I want to do nothing. I want to talk to someone. I want to be left alone.
ARRRRGGGHHH!!!!!
Good things:
My voice is smoother, isn't cracking/breaking. Already!
I can smell the world! Trees & flowers & grass & the AIR!!!!! Wow! Air is beautiful!
My teeth are whiter! Amazing! So soon!
People tell me my skin color is better
I'm kinda headachy and buzzy.
It lies. It wouldn't be just one.
I'm using nicotine lozenges. They work! Let me recommend them! Today they're taking care of the physical craving, but the mental noise goes on, and on.
I'm also in NicA, the 12-Step program for nicotine users. I'm praying, making phone calls, posting & emailing people who care. I'm waiting for people to get back to me. I'm impatient, I want relief from my own head.
I'm twitchy. I don't want to be in my own skin. I can smell my own teeth. I want something to do. I want to do nothing. I want to talk to someone. I want to be left alone.
ARRRRGGGHHH!!!!!
Good things:
My voice is smoother, isn't cracking/breaking. Already!
I can smell the world! Trees & flowers & grass & the AIR!!!!! Wow! Air is beautiful!
My teeth are whiter! Amazing! So soon!
People tell me my skin color is better
I'm kinda headachy and buzzy.
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